Cockroach..

how does it feel killing some thing?

Have u ever thought about how does somebody's feeling when he kills some one? 

Does he feel anything? 

What is it in his mind when he looks at his victim's face when he is dying? 

Jeezee, how come some body could take others life..

This morning, I took some creature's life.. a cockroach! 

Yeah, you might laugh at me reading my story and think that this is ridiculous or a fool. That's okay! 

Well, I know it is only a cockroach, a disgusting-creature that usually crawling from our bathroom or such a dirty corner. I know that it is only a creature that we always trying to chase it away from our house. But, this morning I just realize that it is also a living thing that has a life!

It came out from somewhere when I took a bath and scarry me. Yeah, I scared everytime I see it. This happened because of a traumatic experience when I was a kid. When I was a 10 years old, some of my room mate (when I stay in a boarding house) was making a foolish joke. 

They put many cockroach in my locker. I didnt know they did it. And when I opened my locker, they all sudden flew away from it and some of them hit me directly on my face. Could you ever think how does it feel when the serrated-stiky-leg jump into your face?? well, that was exactly what I feel. 

I was shocked and screaming anxiously. And since after, I always scared about the cockroach. 

I was so scared so I took a carbolic --I usually put it in the bath room-- and spill it over.

It offcourse ran away and try to hide. But it can't run so far bcos a second later it was suddenly upside down and it's leg up raising in the air death-struggling. Quite long enough before finally freeze.. 

That cockroach is death! 

It happened only in seconds, but I didnt miss anything. I saw it death right before my eyes. And the way it dye, when it death-struggling with the leg up raise in the air make me feel so terrible. 

I felt so guilty for taking it life. I was thinking about how does it feel when it dye. 

God, I hope He forgive me for taking His creature life without permission. I shouldn't do it. I should have chased it away without killing it.

And a minute later, I was looking at the ant in a different way.. However, they deserve to live beside us, human. I still feel very bad.

Now I wonder what does somebody's feeling when he kills some one? Hhh...

Reuni

(Left-Right: Rina, Asih, Ichen and Ichen's husband)

Reun1 @ Tamani Cafe, Bintaro Plaza, Jaksel, 26 Nov 2005, 16.30wib.

Bertemu teman lama, apalagi teman sekelas waktu SMA pasti selalu menyenangkan. Sesaat kita seakan terbawa kembali ke masa-masa ketika kita masih remaja. Waktu seperti tidak berarti, karena ketika melihat wajah-wajah mereka, rasanya tidak ada yang berubah. Sepertinya baru kemarin kita sekelas. Saling bercanda, ejek-ejekan, kik-kik-an, gank-gank-an.. Tanpa terasa sudah 16 tahun itu semua kita tinggalkan.

Dan, hari ini semua kejadian-kejadian itu menjadi sesuatu yang manis untuk diingat-ingat. Semua sepertinya berubah menjadi sesuatu yang lucu ketika kita bicarakan kembali. Sepertinya tak ada lagi perbedaan dan pengkotak-kotakan diantara kita. Semua lebur jadi satu..

(Left-Right) Asih, Ichen + Husband, Rina, Wardi, Ilyas, Kartono and Me...

Dan reuni ini memang menjadi suatu yang berharga. Betapa tidak? Karena untuk mengumpulkan 7 orang seperti yang terjadi di Tamani Cafe, Bintaro Plaza, tanggal 26 November 2005 itu saja, susahnya bukan main. Karena kesibukan masing-masing, maka mencari kesamaan waktu, itulah satu alasan yang membuat kita sulit untuk berkumpul saat ini. Jadi, ketika kita cuma bisa berkumpul 7 orang, well, not bad lah.. Not bad at all.

The Journey to Lembang

(Right to Left: Me, Iman, Aunty, Dahlan and Yayan)

Road to village..

It may be a bit strange, but that is true. We are 8 brothers n sisters consists of 4 girls and 4 boys. The oldest is girl n the second one is boy. The next is girl and me is number 4. The 5th is girl again, then boy.. another girl and the last one is boy.. It's very rare, isn't it? Girl-Boy-Girl-Boy (me)-Girl-Boy-Girl-Boy.. we are all 8 brothers and sisters.

It is strange that we all, the boys, have never had any chance to go along together. Same time, same place. And last Saturday, was the first time for us going together in one vehicle. I didnt know what was in their mind, but what I felt is, I was so sad to realize that after all these time, all these years, we just have a chance to go together on that day. 

Where were we? 

I guess, we've been struggling so hard in life, one to each other, so that  rarely  have a chance to spend our time together, for travellling. God, it feels so good. I feel warm among them. Share laugh. Eye hunting for a nice good looking girl, well, as a boy in common.. 

Feels so great! We've been just like a friends..

I hope we could have chance like this more often.. 

I hope all of our brothers have the same feeling about me, that we are all always connected eventough we are separated b'cos of our effort to struggle.. 

Nothing is matter but brotherhood! 

Nothing is matter but family!

I guess our dady is having a big smile way up there!!!

Yayan, Iman and Dahlan (left-right)